Doubtless you inspire
The words that buzz around my head.
Those loud incantations that fill my heart with a lightness almost palpable.
So that, when I’m by your side
It feels as though I could reach out and pluck the perfect words from the strands of your wild hair. I feel as though I could.
But then I get stuck, undone in my desire to take you in.
To witness your being until it washes over me and drowns who I was; what I wanted to say.
What I wanted to say was,
Deeply and completely.
For drowning me.
For taking me into yourself and trusting me enough to let me rest in you, for a moment.
And now I have begun thinking of you again,
And the words are starting to fade.
As they do when the image of you cascades into my mind.
Before they vanish please note;
I always want it to be you that pushes me under the water and drowns me;
I always want it to be you who pulls me back up for air.